My meditation journey
I tried meditation because I wanted to heal the pain over the death of my husband. I never thought that meditation will give me more than healing but a new life.
When that crisis happened to me, I find life, harder to accept. The pain is like my daily reality that I became lonelier and hopeless. I feel sickly, irritable, always angry and cannot contribute much at work. I cannot find my motivation so I always cry. I cannot pull myself back to my feet.
Even if I pray hard, read all the self-help books & even the Bible, attend seminars, I still don’t know what to do with my life. I always asked myself, “why can’t I be happy?”
No one knows what is happening to me because I always pretend to my loved ones & friends that I am strong and I can do everything. But deep inside, I am crumbling down.
I know that I need to face it because I feel I am drowning, up to the point that I cannot breathe anymore. I needed help because what is happening to me is beyond me.
When I see in front of my eyes that my children are getting affected badly because of the picture I painted, I surrender. I don’t want them to be like me.
Now, after more than 24 months of diligent meditation, I am almost at the end of the 7 levels.
I can say from then on, I changed a lot positively and so did my life. I find happiness everywhere. It feels like I am being reborn.
The investment of my time discarding has helped me understand and learn a lot of things.
I have given up the need to always be right.
I can now allow things to happen which have thought me to let go easily and to give up the need to control.
By emptying my mind, I find my quiet pace without having to go through some self-defeating talk or having to worry on judgment or criticism from other people.
I have learned to give up complaining and blaming anyone. Instead I now find myself start to take responsibility of my actions.
I don’t give in to excuses and to other people’s expectations anymore, not to mention my expectations of other people.
I became open to change and give up my limiting beliefs.
I learn that we only create our own fear so when I empty my mind, I am now able to accept even the unknown future.
I learn to detached too so I can coexist with everyone.
Now, I find happiness everywhere, it’s like the wind, you cannot see nor touch it but you know it is there.
The daily clutter I throw away through meditation has helped me embrace my authentic self and has given me an unexplainable peace.
And with peace comes the unbelievable gratitude I have in my heart…it is overflowing. The more I empty myself, the more I give thanks. What follows is the feeling of unfathomable peace.
I am amazed at the power of the emptying the mind. With this method, I now understand how to be one with God.
Truly, without the self is the way to everlasting life.
This Meditation Brought True Happiness When There Was No Hope.
Have you ever had to deal with losing your job? Have you ever gotten divorced? Have you ever had to deal with the death of a parent or loved one? Have you ever had an accident so serious that it required multiple surgeries and a lengthy recovery?
Well, I experienced all of these things in the course of 3 years in my lifetime. I’m not sharing my story to get your sympathy. My intent is to illustrate just how dark and hopeless a man’s life can get and that there is a way out of the pain.
All of the events I mention happened so fast, I didn’t know what to do. Since I was a very young boy, I had always dealt with depression and anxiety. I also had skin problems and digestive problems because of the stress in my life. After all of these events, all of my problems got worse. I was at the lowest point in my life. I was so depressed I was actually frozen. I couldn’t answer the phone or go out with friends. Some days I couldn’t get out of bed or find a reason to stop sleeping. I didn’t eat. I had trouble finding any happiness in life. I was on medication for pain, anxiety, depression, my skin condition and high blood pressure. I tried exercise and changing my diet to healthier foods but all of these changes were only bringing temporary relief. I was miserable and withdrawn and didn’t want to be around anyone. Even when I was around others, I still felt lonely and sad. My doctor diagnosed me with severe depression and this scared me even more. I really felt like there must be a point to life; I needed a purpose for living.
While I was recovering from my accident, I had a lot of time to sit and think about my next step. It was the darkest time in my life and I remember thinking that of all the things I’d done – joining the Army, going to college, my career and my marriage – nothing I’d achieved brought me any fulfillment. I achieved many goals in my lifetime but nothing ever brought me the satisfaction that I thought it would once I attained what I was after. I found myself becoming reflective and seeking spirituality. I was looking for something that would give my life a purpose.
In the town I live in, this meditation center had a sign up for a free lecture. I’d driven past the Center 3 or 4 times that particular week and thought that this meditation might be a good thing to bring some peace and spirituality back into my life. Finally, one day I stopped in and listened to the lecture and I can tell you, honestly, I didn’t know what to make of a lot of the information that was shared with me. The one thing that I did connect with was that I felt like I was all alone because I was living in my own little world in my head. I knew that I had built a world in my mind of how I thought everything should be and nothing and nobody could ever match my view of my world.
That one connection was enough to get me to sign up and meditate for the first time. I meditated for two classes in a row that evening and began throwing away my remembered thoughts. The next day, I found myself running back to meditate again. The relief was that significant. After a week of meditating, I started to feel brighter and realized that I wasn’t alone at all; I belonged and was part of this world. Everything began to look beautiful in my life. People were beautiful. Houses were beautiful. The sky was beautiful!
I’d never felt this way before and all of the medication, exercise, diets and doctors that I’d dealt with in my entire life had never been able to make me feel this positive and connected to the world. None of these things worked. They were all just coating the real problem and giving me a temporary feeling of relief. I knew at that point that this meditation was the reason I was getting better and so I meditated diligently for the next year. In that time, I was able to get back in the game – back into life! I got off of all my medication and felt even better. My doctor was shocked when he saw how positive and happy I was. My blood pressure returned to normal. My signs of anxiety and depression had faded away. For the first time in my life, my skin was clear and back to normal. It was a miracle! I realized that all of my life, I was living in my own dark picture world in my mind and that was what made me so sick. None of the medications I’d been prescribed or any of the doctors I had seen were able to make me feel any better, but here I was – finally cured.
I found peace, fulfillment, TRUE HAPPINESS and a purpose for my life. By discarding all of my thoughts, pictures, memories and standards, I was starting to feel the benefits of a healthier, cleaner mind and my physical body was able to function properly, ultimately healing all of my ailments – both mental and physical.
I started to wake up and stopped living in my own thoughts all of the time. My relationships improved. People asked me why I was smiling and I didn’t even realize that I was smiling. I began to work more effectively. I became able to accept others as they are and accept the world as it is without the judgment I used to impose on everything in my life. You can’t imagine how grateful I am to this meditation. Freedom from my own miserable thoughts has brought peace and wisdom into my life.
As I said earlier, I’m not sharing my story to get your sympathy. I’m sharing it as a testimonial of what this meditation has done for me and what it will do for you. If you are reading this and you identify with any part of my story, I strongly urge you to begin this meditation immediately! (Even if you don’t identify with any part of my story, I strongly urge you to begin this meditation immediately!) In our society, there are so many people who look completely happy and successful from the outside because they earn a lot of money or have a great career or because they have an expensive car and a beautiful family. You may be surprised to learn that because we are all living in our own dark mind world, everyone struggles with pain, sadness and loneliness. The urgency of my condition is what drove me to find this meditation faster than others.
There’s a saying that if there are 7 billion people living in this world then there are 7 billion realities. That means 7 billion people all living in their own personal mind worlds. It’s now time for everybody to stop living in their human mind world and co-exist together in reality. No more pain. No more stress. No more burdens. Only love, peace and liberation from pain and struggle.
Even if you can’t accept everything you’ve read in this testimonial or what you hear in the lecture, please just try this method and see for yourself. I promise you will understand everything that you question as you clean your mind. In my case, my mind was so full of stress and pictures it was making me sick – even killing me. I’m not quite finished with this meditation method, but I now know my purpose in life and it brings such great freedom and peace. If I walked out of the lecture that day and hadn’t begun meditating, I don’t even know if I’d still be alive today. Please know that you don’t have to suffer or live with the pain in your mind world. This meditation saved my life and it can save yours too.
I am changing everyday with subtraction method!
After practicing this meditation my life seems so clear and has more meaning. I appreciate now that I was meant to have been a mother and I have a place. I feel gratitude for what I have without wanting more. Relationships with friends have been amended and are more fruitful than ever. I feel more compassion for anyone from strangers right up to those closest to me.
My stress and anxiety is reduced dramatically, even the children and the dogs are less stressed. In the past I always followed my mind. Since following the method and discarding the pictures in my mind I feel I am finding the true me and my fears and insecurities are washed away. Even from the first few levels of this meditation I feel the change in me and I am still changing day by day.
Through all this I can say that this mediation has overcome all that I was and without the method I don’t know what I would have done. I am so grateful to the founder, for the method, everyone at the local centre and all the helpers for saving my life.
This meditation is? “simple and so powerful”
Before meditation, the life I have lived from the outside looked good. Perhaps to the eyes of the people around me I was happy and confident with family, school and work but I was very worried and always felt pressured within. I always had this need to please everyone and was obsessed about maintaining an image for a good person in front of others. I was always hiding behind my fake smiles and heavy make-up, covering myself up to be perfectly good. Through the meditation I realized that this was all because I was so worried about how the world saw me. I was so worried that I never wore white socks or bright colors because people could then see how dirty my feet were. I felt as if the world was judging me for every little thing about me. My insecurities always overwhelmed me that I was haunted with insomnia.
However, reflecting back at my life, the meditation has really helped me see that I was only living inside this bubble. I was stuck inside a place where I cared only about my self-centered views and comparing myself and wanted to become better with my own standards that I had made to myself. Now that I look back at myself, I was so ridiculous! Riddling myself with so many worries.
I have done the meditation from level 2 in Korea, so I have not yet met people that know of the old me. However, even the people here say that from the time I’ve been here that I look brighter. I see my own change too, my insomnia is gone and I dance around in whatever colored socks, without makeup. When I no longer rely on the opinion of others, I feel much stronger and free. The greatest gift the mediation has allowed me is to allow me to see that the world does not spin around me. I have been living only for myself. For me, the greatest part of this meditation is to see reality, the true world, outside of my bubble.
Every day is a clean slate after meeting this meditation.
Within one month after I started this meditation, my behavior and habits began to drastically change. I used to sit in the back of my classes at my university daydreaming to pass the time, but after a month of meditating diligently I was sitting at the front of the room eager to listen and learn. In fact, learning became fun and didn’t feel like an endless chore like it had in the past. Better yet, I began to raise my hand in class to ask questions and give answers, which I was scared to do in the past out of fear. I noticed myself gradually becoming a positive, proactive person and my grades showed it too.
As I looked back on myself it was as if I was deaf. Deaf to the world around me, thinking that all I had in my mind was right. I couldn’t listen to anyone. This meditation opened up my mind and all senses to the world around me.
All of the positive changes I experienced with the meditation were extremely natural. They happened just by subtracting my ‘self,’ my ego. None of my actions felt forced, so I never felt exhausted like I had when I was just telling myself to be a positive person and happy. I slowly but surely lost the life that was causing me nothing but problems, and a whole new life opened up for me full of endless possibilities. My focus changed from avoiding my problems to proactively finding them and fixing them, by subtraction. Each level of the meditation was different and had a different enlightenment to look forward to, which made it enjoyable and exciting.